Life is chock full of them, goodbyes. Every milestone of life holds the key to opening a new chapter, turning a page. Its progression, moving forward. Keeping our eyes on the prize, growing up and older and wiser. But just because its natural, doesn't mean its easy. Every time I walk through a new door, I'm walking away from something else.
Getting married meant saying goodbye to my single life and making my own choices about my future. Having children meant saying goodbye to my freedom and my heart. I had to say goodbye to my education for awhile so my babies would feel safe. Goodbye to each child as they grow up and move out and move on into new doors all their own.
Some goodbyes are harder than others. Calling off an engagement, changing career paths, moving to a new city. Starting over and turning your back to a different future. Being brave and moving forward in spite of your fear.
But every goodbye is really also a hello to some thing else. Its a trade off. A bittersweet exchange of one vantage point for another. As my heart aches for what used to be or could have been, it is soothed by the excitement of what's in store.